Giant Shit Balls!!!

ok so, i have to rant a little.  ugh.  im just gonna come out and say it.  some people in life are so insanely immature, rude and just narrow minded.

should i blog about this?  probably not.  do i care?  nope not at all.  do i care who sees this?  uh no why would i blog about it if i did???  and is this directed at someone?  yes all the eff-tards who fit the description below.

i cant even begin to describe how over it i am.  can you please jump off a bridge?  willingly?  or how bout just lay down on some train tracks?  ok this is a bit mean.  but sometimes my blood boils.

when people think they are holier than thou, think that they know everything and bring up the past (oh say like how someone acted almost a decade ago) it pisses me off.  who are you to think you have the slightest clue who i am anymore.  people are capable of change  just because you aren't doesnt mean the rest of us fall into that time warp.   you think you "know" me- you know what i let you see.  you have no idea the person i have become.  you are so closed off in your narrow minded world with your all about me attitude, you cant see past the nose on your face.

who i am is a loving mom.  a mom who would and has done any and everything for her kids.  im a mom who thanks God every day for giving us another day and who prays everynight to be able to wake up in the morning and fight with my kids to get ready.  im a mom who may give in to her kids a bit too much, but would give my life before i let them be hurt.  im a mom who will do anything to make sure they are with me. im a mom who loves her kids more than my own life.  im a mom who goes to every game, every practice, every school outing, attends every meeting for the kids and volunteers time (that sometimes i didnt have) just so my kids know i am there for them.  im a mom who listens to her kids talk, who can read past their words and see into their hearts.

im a wife who is finally a happy wife.  a wife who understands the meaning of unconditional love from her husband.  a wife who may nit pick over silly things (who doesnt), but doesnt want to spend a day without my love.  im a wife who has finally- over a couple failed attempts- found one who i WANT to spend my life with and will do anything and go to any lengths to keep my family intact.   im a wife who early on did not understand a lot, was naive and immature, but over the last decade have come into my own and am proud of who i am and the mom/wife/role model i am.

i am a person who is happy with myself.  for the most part :) i may not be skinny or even thin, but i am happy with myself and my curves.  i may not be working right now, but i am enjoying every minute of homeschooling emmy and spending time with my kids.  i may not be the most beautiful, but i know i am pretty damn good looking for being almost 30 :)  i am ok with not knowing it all bc i know i can and will eventually figure it out.  i am a person who looks at others and thinks how can i help them.  im a person who loves to give back bc people have helped me along the way and i want people to know i am there for them too.  im a person who enjoys a quiet sunset in a rocker (ok that sounded old).  im someone who makes friends with everyone i meet bc i love people.  im a person who doesnt take shit from people and who says whats on her mind- regardless!  its better said blunt than sugar coated.  im a person who can see past the wall put in front by people and can see what really lies beneath.   im someone people trust.  im someone that is honest even when it hurts.

you think you know me, you have no idea.  this is only a scrapping of me.  my true friends and family know me.  you are neither.  i am so sick of the GIANT SHIT BALLS that are spouted from your mouth, it makes me sick. 

all you have are empty promises, empty threats and innuendos that you hang on to praying someone believes them so you dont look like an idiot.  well i have news for you....  too late.

and as far as the comment- people can change...  i have.  proof is in the walk.... and you are all hot gas.

sometimes life may not go as planned or as expected.  sometimes life throws GIANT SHIT BALLS at you and you may not be able to dodge them all (eww) and sometimes you may just wanna say eff it and just stop trying...  but when you stop, look ahead, take a deep breathe and keep on going, giving it your best every day and trying to make today better than yesterday- thats what makes the difference.  i may not have always made the right decisions in life, but i own my mistakes and chose to move on, making myself a better person, mother and wife every day...

so if you dont like me- eff off.  if you think you know me- you dont (i choose who to let in).  if you think you got one up on me- i laugh in your face.  if you dont like my blog, dont read it.  if you get offended or pissed about this blog, then look at your own life and figure out why you are getting so mad.  did i say this was about you?  no i said it is about people who fit into this category...  step back and evaluate yourself.

katie