The Terrible Truth...

Ok.  So they say when you set a goal to tell people about it and it makes you more determined and motivated to stick with it.  So I know I have done this before, but here is a twist.  I am going to tell EVERYONE my actual WEIGHT.  Ugh and EVERYONE knows that is SOOOOO hard for a girl to do.  So here it is.  As of today, 27 Feb 2012...  I weigh...  Ok well first, let me tell you my journey lol.  Makes it a little more bearable!

My Average weight in High School was 145lbs/ size 9.  I was never a "small" girl.  I was a good size, athletic type legs, I've always had bigger thighs and a smaller waist and a big butt...
Me and my Dad in 2000 and the me on my HS senior trip.  I wasn't big at 145...

After 2 kids, I was averaging about 175 lbs and a size 12.  Still not bad.

While I went away to Intel school, I drank ALOT.  In the 6 months away, I got up to 216lbs/ SIZE 18 by graduation!!!  IN 6 MONTHS I GAINED THAT FROM BOOZE AND EATING OUT ALOT!   My waist was about a 39, I was just fat...  Not another word for it...  Pure boozing and eating out!  

Since then (summer 2009) I never really recovered.  I did they HCG for 30 days and got to 185lbs but gained it ALL back plus an extra 5 lbs when I stopped.

So since EARLY 2011, I've been weight around 195lbs/SIZE 14. The pics are of me and my BUFFALO out for my bachelorette party in May 2011.  This is about 190 lbs.  She got me into skinny jeans for the 1st and only time (one day again, soon :)

 



When I got out of the military in Summer 2011, I gained another little bit, putting my at 206.5/SIZE 16-PUSHING 18 as of after Christmas 2011!  I was horrified.  This is me and the girls in Sept 2011...  I was exhausted after climbing 303 stairs- yeah it's a lot, but I was feeling the pain, and then another 1/2 mi walk to the castle... uphill...  fml. You can see my gained weight around tummy and thighs... ugh.  I hate this picture :( This is at about 204 lbs

All the extra weight was gaining around my tummy, which is the MOST UNHEALTHY AREA b/c it can lead to early heart attacks and all!  I was determined to get it off and finally be healthy!  Not b/c I had to b/c the military made me, not b/c Paul is an avid gym guy, not b/c I wanna be as small as a model, but b/c I WANNA BE HEALTHY.

So my New Year's resolution was to get healthy.  Yes I set a weight goal of 175, but ultimately, it's a size thing.  Muscle weight more than fat, so if i can get to a size 12, I think I will be pleased.  A size 10/160 lbs and I will be ECSTATIC!!!

They said weight issues can be genetic.  I don't disagree, but I believe it is more in the CHOICES YOU MAKE.  YOU CHOOSE TO SHOVE YOUR FACE FULL OF TAKE OUT.  YOU CHOOSE TO EAT THOSE DESSERTS AND DRINK THOSE SODAS, ALCOHOLIC DRINKS AND SHAKES.  YOU CHOOSE NOT TO WORK OUT.  everyday is full of choices.  every day is a new day with new possibilities.  everyday you have the CHOICE to change your life and MAKE IT WHAT YOU WANT.  don't say "i can't do it!"  YOU CAN IF YOU WANT IT TO HAPPEN.  you can't sit back and say "i want, i want, i want".

IF YOU WANT, YOU MAKE IT HAPPEN!  It won't happen overnight.  That's what my biggest issue it- I don't see results in a week and I'm devastated.  But you know what, I saw results in 2 weeks, 3 weeks, and every week since!  I see my endurance improving, I see myself doing things I didn't think I could ever do again b/c of my wrist...  Everyday I make the CHOICE to get up and do something to better MY life.  Not for anyone else, but FOR ME.
And b/c of that, I went from weighing 206.5 on 1 Jan 2012 to now, 190.4 on 27 Feb 2012.    So far a total of 16.1 lbs in 8 weeks (and i took 2 weeks off of working out- so really 6 weeks!)!!!!  I have lost about 3 inches in my waist, 1.5 in my thighs, down 2 pant sizes, I am stronger and have more endurance than I ever did in the Air Force, I feel happier than ever, my anxiety is almost nil, and overall I feel better about myself than I ever have.  My days are happier and I WANT TO make the right choices for my life when it comes to being healthy.
This is a pic of early Feb 2012.  You can see it in my face- I don't have a pic- yet- of a body shot, but I will!  And will edit and post!

For all of you who think you CAN'T, you are only LYING to YOURSELF and DEFEATING YOURSELF.  How about you PROVE to yourself that you ARE WORTH IT?  I tell you- it is a very proud moment when you look back and you can see what you were and who you are becoming...  :)

Thanks to Jillian Michaels, I am becoming the person I have always wanted to be!

Loves to ALL-
Katie