It's been a while

So, yes, it has been quite some time since I blogged.  I guess, with everything that has happened- it just seemed to get away from me.

Anyways, lately things have been pretty good.  Life has been going well.  Paul took me to Paris to celebrate my 30th bday (it was pretty amazing and probably the best bday ever), Madison scored super high on her Terra Nova testing (it's like the national standardized tests for the states, but for DoD schools).  between 45-55 was "average" and she score 74 on reading (which she has gotten way better at), and between 92-98 on math, science and social studies!!!  She blew it outta the water and I was pretty proud!  Emily starts school this year and has been able to pretty much complete all her Pre K and K work books, she writes, reads about 200 words, can memorize like there is no tomorrow, and is almost all "checked off" of the "Things kids should know for the start of 1st grade" and she isn't even in Kindergarten yet!   I am so happy the girls are incredibly smart!

Apartment life living sucks...  I get really tired at all the commotion, arguing and kids screaming...  I am ready for our own place again...  But that won't happen til we PCS.  ugh!

Also, the girls went to their dad's for the summer....  And I volunteer every day at the Fisher House in Landstuhl.  We help the wounded warriors, give them a place to stay and watch after them and their families while they are getting medical treatment.  I have been doing great there, and they offered me a job!  I wasn't looking for one, but hey!  I really enjoy working/volunteering there!  I love interacting with everyone and learning about them.  The only thing that sucks is in the month I have been there we have lost 2 soldiers...  It's hard even though I don't really know them well...  But I got to know them a little...  Sucks...

Paul and I have been doing fundraisers and events that benefit the Wounded Warrior Project... We recently did the Viking Challenge...  I walked 10 miles and he ran 4 miles... This weekend we are volunteering for Solider Ride, an event that supports our injured soldiers...  Again...  Yes we love helping :) If you can see the trend :)

We get the girls back in about 2 weeks!  I am excited...  We are all loving Germany and are looking forward to more traveling with the kids!  Sept brings Edelweiss for 5 days (the resort in the Bavaria Alps) and Oktoberfest!  October will bring Emily's 6th bday!!!  And November/December Holidays!!!  I can't believe how fast this year is going by...  It is pretty crazy to think about November...  It actually sucks still...  There goes a good mood again :/

You know what's weird, idk maybe weird isn't a right word, but...  there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about November...  Am I ever going to really get over it and be ok?  Some days I am fine and other days it still hurts.   Like now.  July 11th was the day and all month I have just been "off" and not feeling like myself and it feels the same even though we are now in August.  I attribute me being off to this...  idk.  I try not to think about things...  But sometimes you can't help it ya know.

Ugh, I know it take time.  I know and I am not looking for MORE advice... And I hate hearing the following (just FYI).
- it will happen in time
- just don't think about it
- stop "trying" and then it "will" happen
- it takes time
All of these, I just smile and think in my head, some very colorful expletives lol.  b/c no matter how hard I try not to think about things, it's there, I know it will happen in time, but doesn't mean I want to hear it, b/c frankly, time seems to just be slippin' on by...  and I'm not "trying", I am "enjoying married life with my husband" lol.  I had a check up and my doctor did say that after 12 months- we can try other options though...  :/  and that just sucks.  and scares the poo out of me!  So hopefully it doesn't go that route...  Oh well, I just felt like venting for a min.

Anyways, I hate when Paul is away, even when it's only for a few days...  Especially when the girls are gone too...  life seems to D-R-A-G...  Seems like I have so much time, but when he or everyone is here seems like I have NO time.  Why is that?  So annoying lol. Wish I could just slow that part down... Oh well.  Anyways, it's almost midnight and I have to work tomorrow... So I better get to bed.
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 But now I am hungry...  Hate late nights...  Guess I'll go drink a bottle of water... :)
Goodnight all.
Katie